Hi everyone. You all probably forgot about me, or assumed I died or something. I haven’t been posting, I know. I haven’t forgotten about my blog, I just am scared of being triggered. I have had two suicide attempts this past months. I feel like I’m getting worse. Although, I am eating a more regular diet, I am obviously still unhappy about my weight and my body. But I’m trying to ignore it and put it aside, which works… sometimes. As of now, I can’t feel. I haven’t been cutting, or done any of the “negative” behaviors. But I know myself, I know that I’m getting worse, despite ridding myself of physical harm….